What to Share..

Sometimes I feel like ranting all over my blog about the crap I’m getting so frustrated over.

Instead I settle for summarizing my anger in 140 characters on Twitter… then I delete the tweet. Like some modern way of putting all your thoughts onto a piece of paper and putting it into a bottle and letting it sail far, far away. I don’t think anybody wants to see unhappy posts on my blog or Twitter. I also don’t feel like some people that are creeping on my blog deserve to know what’s truly going on in my life. Although this last one kind of mostly apply to people that are in my city because I don’t like them having those sorts of information. (PS .. =_= I can see a certain someone creeping… but okay). Heck, even my best friends don’t know 100% of what’s going on when they know I’m upset.

But some days I feel like the weight of the world is put upon my shoulders and I can only hold on for so long. Even solid rock changes its shape when the waves repeatedly keep hitting against it. I saw I guess a motto yesterday: “adapt and overcome”. I guess that’s the only way sometimes to carry on each day. Make the best of the situation and push hard to get over it.

Anyway, that’s my excuse for not updating regularly. I’m trying to keep from littering my blog with entries where I’m filled with anger and/or frustration… unless you’ve registered an account and I gave your account permission to reach my protected entries harhar. Sometimes life should give us a break -sigh-.

On a lighter note… I bought some new bb cream/foundation to try.. I’ll take a picture of the haul when it comes haha >< And here's a quiz I did... LOL!

STEP ONE:

Name: Jiawen / Carmen
Nickname: Carm, Carmie, bully, Anti-Bae, Princess Carmen (LOL.. cuz we call my friend King Con and she calls me Princess Carm)
– Eye Color: Brown
– Hair Color: Black (dyed dark brown at the moment)
– Zodiac Sign: Scorpio

STEP TWO:

–The shoes you wore today: white converse
– Your weaknesses: I’m pretty sensitive to people’s comments.
-Your fear(s): bugs/insects UGH.

STEP THREE:

– Your best physical feature: Lips? Eyes?
– Your bedtime: Late into the morning haha~

STEP FOUR:

This Or That…
– Pepsi or Coke? Cokeee!!
– McDonald’s or Burger King: McDonald’s
– Adidas or Nike: I’ve only worn Adidas
– Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Both.
– Cappuccino or coffee: Isn’t cappuccino a sort of way to.. make coffee : |? I’m not sure of all the terminology… LOL! I like White Chocolate Mocha ><

STEP FIVE:

Do You…
– Sing: Yes… secretly LOL.
– Dance: Sure. Secretly.. LOL.
– Take a shower everyday: Yar.
– Have a crush: Not really.
– Like(d) high school: Parts of it.
– Want to get married: When I find the right guy~.
– Get motion sickness: Only if the condition is really bad.
– Think you’re a health freak: Not at all haha!
– Get along with your parents: Up and downs.

STEP SIX:

In the past month…
– Gone to the mall: Since I work at a store in the mall, yes! LOL.
– Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Er no haha. I was actually just thinking about how I wanted some though @_@.
– Eaten Sushi: Yeah.
—Been on Stage: Nope~
– Gone skating: Haven’t gone since God knows when LOL.
– Made homemade cookies: No : (
– Gone Skinny dipping: Nope.

STEP SEVEN:

– Age you hope to be married: Before 30 I guess. We’ll see haha ><
– Numbers of Children: Probably like two.
– Describe your Dream Wedding: My DREAM wedding would probably not be in Canada. Maybe somewhere tropical *_*. I’m not sure haha.
– What country would you most like to visit?: European countries! PLEASE! ><

STEP EIGHT:

In the opposite sex…
– Best eye color?: Green or Grey, mmm @_@
– Best hair color?: Doesn’t really matter haha. No preference for light or dark.
– Short hair or long hair?: Short. I don’t really like long shaggy hair =. No buzz cut or whatever though LOL. And no weird bush cut like Tae Yang =_=.
– Height: I’m only about 5’2 1/2 or so but I want him much taller than me…

STEP NINE:

– Number of people I could trust with my life: Hm…. 3?
– Number of CDs that I own: I’m not even sure haha.
– Number of tattoos: Zeroooo.
– Number of piercings: ..Zero : (

Personal Quiz

Who were you with yesterday? Leenersss
What woke you up this morning? Nothing~.
Is tomorrow going to be a good day? I don’t know! : )

THE PAST

Ever thrown up in public? Uhmmmm, I don’t recall to be honest o_O
Passed out because of alcohol? Nope. Never even gotten drunk because I don’t drunk that much : o
What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW? Secretttt.

THE FUTURE

What kind of home would you like? I kind of have two dream homes in mind. One’s a nice, cozy one. Not a small house per se, but one where I can come home and smile and think.. this is what a home is supposed to be. Another is a nice big one that’s very simple and modern. Both better have gigantic room for my books though harhar.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? Not sure yet ><

IN GENERAL

Do you like candy necklaces? Kind of back then haha o_O
When was the last time you fell over or ran into something? I always trip or stub my toes but I don’t remember when I fell over LOL.
Do you listen to music every day? Sure do.
Do you still go trick or treating? Nooo… would be so awkward seeing a 20 year old at your door, no? LOL.
Are you a fast typer? I think I’m okay haha..
Whats your favorite type of soda? COKEEEEE.
Have you ever moved? Yep 3 times I think in my life.
Have you ever won an award? Do honors/merits count?? LOL! If not.. I don’t think so @_@.
Are you listening to music right now? Yep, yep.
How long till your birthday? According to counters on the net – 207 days!
When were you the saddest in your whole life? When was I going through bad times in junior high probably. Extended a little bit into freshman year in high school.
What time is it? 9:01PM
Who makes you mad? Some people… and sometimes myself haha.
Have you ever heard a song written about you? Uh.. no LOL. Not THAT SPECIAL~ Can I cheat and say that opera? LOL.

HONESTY SECTION

1. Honestly, what color is your underwear? Whoa LOL unexpected question. Mauve?
2. Honestly, whats on your mind? Too many to list.
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? Isn’t it obvious? LOL This.
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? What happened to 4 & 5, etc. o_O? Nothing haha!
8. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? Ashley maybe.. I don’t know.
9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? Sure.
10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? When people assume things of me. Or when they don’t want to use their ears to listen to the truth that’s coming out.
11. Honestly, do you bite your nails? No ._.
12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? Never.
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? Sure haha.
14. Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now? Don’t we all hold big secrets at every moment haha ><
15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like? Mmm nope. I don’t become friends with people I don’t like. If it comes to that then it’s time for things to end.
17. Honestly, are you in denial? Denial? Over?
18. Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat? LOL no… Would end up getting a lecture over that for scaring the crap out of my family when they hear sounds in the middle of the night of me rummaging around the fridge.
19. Honestly, do you like anyone? I don’t know. Define like LOL! I’ll just say no.
20. Honestly, does anyone like you? That, I would not know haha! Anyone want to come out and confess? LOL.

ANGER SECTION

1. What do you do when you’re mad? Listen to music, rant on Twitter – then delete it, rant to my friends.
2. What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? I can say pretty hurtful things when I’m angry. Do I regret it? Depends on who it is LOL.
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? I’ve never seen them cry in front of me, so I’ll say no.

CRYING SECTION

1. When was the last time you actually cried? Don’t remember.
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep? Yes.
3. Do certain songs make you cry? Maybe if I was already emotional at that point haha!
4. What usually makes you cry? People, situations, etc.

HAPPY SECTION

1. Are you usually a happy person? Not particularly. I guess I’m the type of person where I have to make an effort to stay happy.
2. What makes you the happiest? Happiest? Not sure yet. But many things make me happy overall haha ><
3. Do you believe in yourself? Ah.. trying to make an effort in this field~
4. When people say they think you are good looking/​pretty,​ do you get happy? Of course. Major compliment, right there. Really, any little compliment still gets me blushing LOL.

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